When nothing seems right

I am super dead..

I can't seem to understand anything and can't seem to get anything right. I am feeling very scared. I never feel like this before, even taking exams in poly didn't feel like this.

Been studying everyday without fail.. To and fro from school, during breaks, at night but somehow, I can't seem to do anything. I am super screwed and I have this feeling I might just flunk all my subjects..

Everyone telling me to relax and not to worry too much. But I can't help but worry. Seriously, it's just so different. Here, they just throw you the things and expect you to pick up almost immediately. I am super screwed...

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What happens when you put men together? They become boys. What happens when you put boys in a space with loud music? Hell break loose.

Last Friday was near life and death experience for me. I went there solely for two purpose, to watch the live band and enjoy the music. But I got more than I bargain for. Watching and being in a mosh pit are indeed two separate things. If looking doesn't seems scary, wait till when you’re in it. That five minute in there was one of the most terrifying and memorable experience in my 22 years of living. With all that pushing, all that punching and all that squashing, I really thought, I wld never get out of it and suffocate to death. It was seriously terrifying and even as I typed this I can remember every single moment. I really wonder why on earth wld people do that because seriously speaking, I dont find any of those things fun. How fun can hurting yourself be?
And the most funniest thing was, I wasn't even planning to be in it and didn't even know I wld be in it, I just happen to got into it. Looking back, it was indeed an experience. It's something I know, no matter how much I try, I will never forget. It was my first and I swear it will be my last.

July was a crazy one. With all that was happening, looking back I really wonder how I survived through it.

August has finally arrived and school has started. The first day was mad. Getting lost and late for lecture was one thing. Falling in front of everyone while climbing up the stairs was pretty embarrassing. Three words to summarize my first three days: Tired, Sweaty and Stressful.

Tired simply because it’s a two hours ride from home to school and there are three days my classes start at 8.30am.
Sweaty because the campus is super big so subjects are held at different lectures in which we often have troubles finding because it’s really spread far. And all that climbing up and down the stairs to get our desired location isn’t helping.
Stressful because the subjects are pretty tough and I must say, I am pretty nervous and scared that I can’t cope. It's only the first week and exam timetable are already out. I'm praying for the best and I’m just glad that there are some familiar faces around. So I guess that is going to help by a bit.

Oh well, till then… I will leave you with a short clip of my boys…I forgot to add that when you put boys together, sometimes they let their feminine side get the better of them...