The part I'm learning

It's been a month plus...

Along the way, many things has happen.

School
I have always been a fan of studying and I love to study. That's the reason why I continued. I have always been a slow learner since young and the only reason I got to where I am was because I work my heart out.

I knew it would be difficult but didn't expect it to be this difficult. If I want to compare, I must say, poly was way easier. The environment here is so different and the jump is really huge. There's no room for slow learners. You got to learn to pick things fast and efficiently. And if you don't, you will fail.

I think I've been sacrificing my whatever time in studying and somehow I'm really exhausted. It's been months since I last came out and have a day of fun, joy of laughter. I still love studying but I just dont like the system. If going to school then was really learning new stuff, now, going to school means you got to know everything first and you go for lessons to revise the topic before you take the exam.

I am not going to lie and say I'm doing perfectly fine, because I am struggling to keep up with the pace. 2 years of not studying made my mind rusty. And being a pure IT student, suddenly being dump with engineering stuff and expected to pick up right away didnt help one bit. But I am learning new stuff everyday and I am going to try to enjoy this learning process...
And if some think I hate studying now, I say, I still like it althought my liking has dropped by a bit.

You took the last straw of hope I had in you. You were everything I believe, respected and trusted. When others put you down, I did everything I could to speak up for you because I thought you weren't what they said. But you had to rob my believe and faith. Time again I gave you the chance in hope things will be better, time again you dissapoint me. I'm tired of pretending it's fine when it's not.