The driver of my life

Life has the unforgiving ability to move on in spite of adversity and difficulty, only to leave you high and dry. The time has finally caught up with me and only now I fully realize the magnitude of my predicament.

And I always thought that I had a steady handle on things but truth is, I was never really successful in keeping my emotions in check. It suffocates me when I realized that I have taken the back seat of the passenger side and no longer the driver steering the direction of my life.

Make it work

It's hard to be happy. It's even harder to pretend to be happy. But it the hardest to be around people you love and pretend that you are happy.

It was like the good old days where I hid in the toilet sobbing my heart out when my emotions got the better of me. For the longest time ever, I stopped doing that because I grew out of it and no matter how pressuring things were, I never once gave in instead I held on and march forward bravely.

But today, I couldn't take it any longer. My heart just sank in despair and I really feel like dying. I just feel like going to the Registration office and shout "I QUIT" but instead, my legs got me to the toilet and there I locked myself up in the cubicle and sob like a broken hearted child who just got spanked.

I thought I long rid of this childish behaviour of crying when I can't get things done. And I hate it that I'm doing it again after so long. I really need to buck up and stop all this -ve thoughts and stay positive. Tiger told me that crying and getting stressed up will not get anything done. But seriously, I can't help it lar and I want to cry my days away.

Can someone come and save me from all this?