I didnt think I would make a comeback with this post. But there is a need for me to voice out my thoughts and there's no better place than here.

Today, I have come to realize that my greatest downfall is always trying to put others before me. It happens all the time and I will always get the crap in the end. I've learnt that no matter how much an effort you put in to do something to help someone, time makes ppl forget.

All I need is a little appreciation and respect. I hate being the one having to answer to ppl when plans dont go right because I dont own anybody an explanation as I helped out of favour and not because I am obligated to do so. I hate getting accused of being bossy just because I push ppl to put in the same effort as I do when we are doing something together. I hate getting scolded over somebody else mistakes or behaviour because if it's their mistake, why do I have to be the one shouldering it. But above all, I hate it when I asked for help and not being received the same way I would have given if that person asked me for helped.

So today, I remind myself from tomorrow onwards, I need to be selfish and put myself first everyone else. I'm done with helping and doing things for ppl who doesnt appreciate.

Mentally drained with school and life. And as much as school sucks, at least, I can run away to different places and have my own alone time whenever I feel like it. But for life, there is no place to run because no matter where you try to go, you'll just be back at the same point.