As the year ends

2007 for me was learning or dealing out of my personal growth. Transitioning from who i was before and into a new person or rather at least wanting to become a new person. And I think I have changed, changed to become someone who is more comfortable of herself, outspoken and verbal.

I was this person who hid behind a shell, who refuses to express or let my feeling known. Each time someone ask me for a favour, and even when I dont feel like doing, I will just go yes or sure. It becomes so routine that I felt everyone around me took me for granted which caused me to get upset, miserable and overly sensitive easily.

I hated the person who I was becoming. The person who wears a false smile every single day, who failed to find the guts and drifts along from day to day. I just got so sick of everything that I soon began to realise that a lot of times we do so many things out of love for other people that sometimes we forget about ourself and the love we need to get to us. It boils down to a point where you have to realise what's good for yourself and whats not and sometimes you just have to say no.

It is always good to make people want to be happy but at the same time you cant overdo it. You got to learn to please yourself before you start pleasing others. You got to learn to love yourself before you learn to love others. And even if everyone in the world gives up on you the one person who should never is yourself.. Bottom line is you got to start with yourself and if you cant even help yourself, who else can?

Despite the long bumpy ride, 2007 has been amazing. I discovered what I want to be, to learn to take away my expectations, throw away any limits, be proud of what I have achieved and become way more true and honest to myself and people around me. I discovered a personal bond with my love ones and my life can never be more than perfect. And I know despite whatever obstacles and struggles the future may be installed for me, with the love I have for myself and the love that is around me, I'm ready to take them all..

"The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other's life".. I love my belo family..

My crazy cousins..My pillars of strength and source of comfort..They have always been there and I know they will always be..

The boys(now grown men) that light up my life and changed my perception of men. It was by pure chance of fate that I got close to them and I thank god for that.. And even though I dont meet them that often, I care for each of them and they hold a special place in my heart. And I mean it when I say that because not many men have the privilage to be in my heart. heh

My princesses who made my poly days filled with so much joy and happiness.. Poly would never been the same without them and although we are all busy leading with our own lives now, my love for them has and will never changed..

Time isn't what makes a friendship last. It's devotion and love that keeps the tie between souls. True frens never part, maybe in the distance but not in the heart. That what these two angels are, the friendship that we share since secondary school is amazing and beautiful because even though we rarely meet but when we do, we can pick up from where we left..

There are always reasons why god bring people to your life. And for whatever reasons god had, I'm glad he brought this two makciks into my life. I don't even know where or when or even how it all started. But I am thankful that it did..

Uni life has been a killer experience. This bunch of crazy people made it a whole load easier and am thankful I have them around me. Always guiding, teaching and giving me support me whenever I need.

Last but not least is my dearest cousin. My life would never be complete without her. She who understands me inside out. She who can finish my sentence and who can read my mind. It is her who I trust my entire life with. My best friend, my sister, my everything..

And with much love, I end 2007 with this chapter closed...