The amount of things you have to think about..
The nitty little details..
The whole big picture plus the whole small picture..
The constant worrying..
The constant panicking..
The constant pressure..
The whole financial issues..
The dateline..
The schedule..
The attendance..

And with all that in your mind..

To be the one doing all the dirty work of scolding and pushing
And yet ensuring that everyone feels good about everything
To try to be nice and get things moving
To assert authority but yet try not appear pushy and bossy
To be the one to always try to keep your emotions intact
To fake a smile even when you're fuming mad
To be open with ideas and listen to everyone else
To soak everyone's anger and sulking
To be the one constantly be aware of everyone's feelings
To take care of everyone else pride and emotions..
And to be the one thinking of everyone else..

So who will think about me?
my emotions and the way I feel?

I swear
We aged not because of our age
But because of the behaviour of the people around us..

I'm fucking tired and I'm sorry for the bad word but I can't help it.