My Potential
8/20. Honestly, what I truly need to do now is to really sit down and review my studying method. The one I'm using now doesn't seem to work well for me. For the first time today after a long time I failed a test. No, I'm not sad. In fact, it's scary how calm I am knowing the perfectionist in me.
When I told my parents about it. They didnt say anything. Not the way I want them to react. I could sense a twinge of 'unexpectedness' because I guess they didnt expect it.
As a child, I have always pushed myself to the extreme limits in everything that I do. They never really had to bother too much about me studying or getting the grades. Passing was never a problem and failing was never in the list. Although each time, I say I might fail, I would end up acing or passing the subject. Which was why they never believed me when I say I am struggling with even passing now. So I guess when the news of how I failed reached their ears, it was probably too abrupt.
But no worries, my parents are cool people like that. In fact, mum didnt even approve of me continuing my studies for fear I study myself to death. While dad always seems to be telling me not to push myself too hard just to get the A's. To quote "Just get a Pass is good already".
While me, I'm learning to adjust myself to the current situation I am in. Don't worry because I am dealing with this failure way better that you can even imagine. In fact in the midst of all this failing, grades and school, I begin to discover where my real passion and potential is. Most definitely not as an Accountant or an Engineer. =)
When I told my parents about it. They didnt say anything. Not the way I want them to react. I could sense a twinge of 'unexpectedness' because I guess they didnt expect it.
As a child, I have always pushed myself to the extreme limits in everything that I do. They never really had to bother too much about me studying or getting the grades. Passing was never a problem and failing was never in the list. Although each time, I say I might fail, I would end up acing or passing the subject. Which was why they never believed me when I say I am struggling with even passing now. So I guess when the news of how I failed reached their ears, it was probably too abrupt.
But no worries, my parents are cool people like that. In fact, mum didnt even approve of me continuing my studies for fear I study myself to death. While dad always seems to be telling me not to push myself too hard just to get the A's. To quote "Just get a Pass is good already".
While me, I'm learning to adjust myself to the current situation I am in. Don't worry because I am dealing with this failure way better that you can even imagine. In fact in the midst of all this failing, grades and school, I begin to discover where my real passion and potential is. Most definitely not as an Accountant or an Engineer. =)
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