People

As we grow older, we tend to turn to validation. We listen to people to define us and take great pride in their definations. You feel beautiful only when someone feel you are. You think you are smart only when someone thought you are. And brave only when someone believe you are. And as the days passed, without realising, you lose yourself to these validations. It made you believe to feel good about yourself but in actual fact you only feel worst because you find youself coming to them for more. What we often forgot is that no one is able to know you, love you, feel you, hold you, the way only you know you can. We don't need these people. God made everyone beautiful and this includes you.

Today, I clicked on the archives on my blog. When I read back at the things I have wrote, I find that a lot of these entries are written with deep thoughts where I ponder about everything ever possible. I guess that's probably the reason why more than often I find people asking if I am depressed or if I am unhappy or if everything is fine. True, these writings rely heavily on my emotions however this are my moments when I recognize them and get over it. But it doesnt mean I am pessimistic or negative. I guess because these entries are a bit more on the reflective side, it often catches people the wrong way.

It's strange isnt it. How we are often expected to behave a certain way around people due to the expectation they create of you. And it's even more strange how we have to live up to that. And when you don't, they think you have changed or you are not being yourself. My take is to stay to your true self and not that somebody conjured by people. There might be consequences but I would take my chances on them. Anytime, anywhere, at anyplace...

Naz, I have been everywhere except around friends. Trust me, you guys are not the only ones. I am working on that though. One step at a time.